Thomas Agrusti
Life
April 9th, 2012
Why I can never
win an argument
I do
not claim to be a hipster. I do not live so that I fall within the bounds of an
existential lifestyle; I admit to not always be the perfect Christian. However,
I cannot deny a few differences that I have invariably, conflictingly, presently,
between me and other humans. Whether these differences be conditioned, learned,
genetic, intentional, or accidental, I know not. However, I feel that, as my
first reason shall go on to expand upon, realizing, acknowledging, and being
self-aware, self-conscious of such factors in my life are the primary reason
for exploring them. As such, I shall endeavor into my own psyche, and how my
homogenous pool is disparaged from that of other humans.
I am
self-aware. I constantly reflect, not just on my philosophical conflicts and my
goals and endeavors. I reflect on my posture, my breathing, my energy level, my
health, and my well-being. I pursue ultimate self-awareness, for by knowing
every variable, factor, and problem they create, you can ultimately solve all
of these problems, and rise to become the alpha human. Mind you, this alpha
human is not the ultimate human, but the ultimate self. I personally would not
be the best athlete in the world, nor would I be the most skilled painter,
violinist, architect, chemist, teacher, or grandfather. I would aim, strive,
and slave to be the greatest self I could attain within my own power. I am my
own obstacle, and overcoming myself, to be better than myself is the best I can
be and the best I would want.
I am
unsympathetic. This may be a child of the former philosophy, which as inspiring
as it may be, and as agreeing with the world as it is written, it results in an
introverted human. How can I be worried about you when I’m so worried about
myself? Your life is your own to live, thusly, your problems are your own to
overcome, to grow upon, and to leap off of to reach the next goal and, thereby,
the next problem. Thusly, I should live life parallel to yours, unless
exponential, if not significant gain, can be made from the intersecting of
life. I understand that the
heterogeneous nature of the natural human is a marvel and, in turn, creates an altogether
greater human being. However, through unlimited, or at least unknowledgeable dependency,
a perception where you don’t know how far you would go an why, is ultimately a
weakness.
I have
a will. I feel that it is important to take ultimate control of my life. It is
my goal to make myself better out of myself, a plant growing from external
resources for internal development. I do not feel it is necessary, nor is it an
obligation, to act upon the premonitions and the expectations of others. However,
I do believe that acting for an ultimate purpose is beneficial, both for the
individual and the world as a whole.
I am my
own, Cogito Ergo Sum, I think, therefore, I am, and I become, and I create. I
am myself to evolve and decide. I have the ultimate choice and, therefore,
there ultimate challenge to become the ultimate self. I am myself, which makes
me different from anything else, and thereby, anyone else. I am my own. I
think, therefore, I am, therefore, I live.
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