The following entries are all philosophical writings that I have, over the years, published on my deviantart. For clerical ease, they are in revere chronological order. To see how my philosophy and writing style developed over time, read from the bottom article up.
When one's thought is left unchecked
Upon lying in bed and pondering until unconsciousness seeped in,
I began pondering a simple subject and noticed something.
I noticed that dating is a lot like applying for a job. You ask initially in confidence, presenting yourself as best as you can, in hopes of acceptance. If they say no, you must walk away in a dignified manner, lest you damage your social standing further and appear desperate. If they say yes, then you prepare for the next stage where you are initially tested and rigorously interviewed in private. This is where both the applicant and recipient analyze each other in-depthy in order to evaluate their situation with the person at hand.
Once this stage is passed, the casual phase is entered, where activity is normal, repetitive, mildly enjoyable, and copesetic. If any inflexion is made upon this normality, problems will arise between the two parties. Continuous inflection will lead to doubts and mistrust between the two, and a steady split begins to occur, eventually leading to either an easy separation, or a total collapse. If the relationship between the two continues in a positive light, however, the situation will be promoted to greater levels of trust, power, and ability. The parties will grow more attached and dependent on each other and thereby opening up new paths for the two to take with each other. Eventually, commitments can be made for long-term standings, and the greatest befits can then me reaped with each other, both in progress and process.
However, some may find that a long-term position is not preferred. In which case, little attachment is obtained, and only minor progress is achieved. Though the parties received most of what was expected out of the scenario, it does not elevate to many terms. In the same way, situations implying a specific field will advance while others are neglected between parties. The relevance of this may be harmful, or may be inconsequential to the parties means and methods, thereby becoming a means to an ends.
In all these ways, dating and jobs are inter-related. I hope you enjoyed this analysis and hope it brought some thought-provoking questions to mind. I apologize for the lack of philosophical analysis contained in this essay, but I will return will common teachings at a later date. Shine today like no other.
I noticed that dating is a lot like applying for a job. You ask initially in confidence, presenting yourself as best as you can, in hopes of acceptance. If they say no, you must walk away in a dignified manner, lest you damage your social standing further and appear desperate. If they say yes, then you prepare for the next stage where you are initially tested and rigorously interviewed in private. This is where both the applicant and recipient analyze each other in-depthy in order to evaluate their situation with the person at hand.
Once this stage is passed, the casual phase is entered, where activity is normal, repetitive, mildly enjoyable, and copesetic. If any inflexion is made upon this normality, problems will arise between the two parties. Continuous inflection will lead to doubts and mistrust between the two, and a steady split begins to occur, eventually leading to either an easy separation, or a total collapse. If the relationship between the two continues in a positive light, however, the situation will be promoted to greater levels of trust, power, and ability. The parties will grow more attached and dependent on each other and thereby opening up new paths for the two to take with each other. Eventually, commitments can be made for long-term standings, and the greatest befits can then me reaped with each other, both in progress and process.
However, some may find that a long-term position is not preferred. In which case, little attachment is obtained, and only minor progress is achieved. Though the parties received most of what was expected out of the scenario, it does not elevate to many terms. In the same way, situations implying a specific field will advance while others are neglected between parties. The relevance of this may be harmful, or may be inconsequential to the parties means and methods, thereby becoming a means to an ends.
In all these ways, dating and jobs are inter-related. I hope you enjoyed this analysis and hope it brought some thought-provoking questions to mind. I apologize for the lack of philosophical analysis contained in this essay, but I will return will common teachings at a later date. Shine today like no other.
There are three things to remember about life.
The First is who you are. There are three possibilities for this.
A) The Conformist
Conformism bends and molds to whatever lies around it. Therefore, the conformist will accept anything and anyone presented to them, dismissing any possible opinion and simply basing their reason the the sole fact of being accepted. Though Conformism will lead to you being accepted almost as easily as you accept that which is around you, you still deny yourself the right of personal taste and personal thought.
B) Anti-conformism
As the name implies, anti-conformism is the negative to A. Anti-conformism denotes the denying of anything that would lead you to be accepted. Anti-conformists prefer to make a name for themselves by being a reject, an outcast, different beyond the normal bounds of society. This also entails that anything "popular" must be hated. Though this path does give a feeling and a need for self reliance and self-expression, it is still not the full ideal for thought.
C) C
Choice. C is for Choice. It doesn't matter what you want other people to see you as or what you want people to think about you, good or bad. You like, dislike, accept, reject, buy or sell whatever you want based on what you enjoy. If you don't enjoy it, you get rid of it. If you do, see if it is truly right for you, i.e. it's safe, and then accept it. This does not mean that you should ignore law, it means that you create hobbies for yourself, your personal tastes, based on what you think, and not by crafting your opinion based on society. Even anti-conformism bounds its limits by forcing itself to be the negative nature of conformism, dismissing any desire to enjoy something they could enjoy, even if it's "popular" or "commonly accepted"
the second thing to remember is the Value of Opinion
After writing, "How to Kill a Conscience" (Not the journal, an essay, I will submit it soon) I discussed it with an intelligent teacher of mind and discovered the Value of Opinion, a simple theory, with a very complex background.
The Value of Opinion states that all opinion is equal, no matter what, whilst dismissing morality. Morality being the % of how an event and it's outcome affect the person and the people around the actor. The Value Of Opinion means that, while ignoring morality, any thought, belief, or idea is truth, and never wrong, based on the system of thought it fits within. Par example, The American society believes that compassion is a trait to be desired, and to be ruthless and merciless is a trait thought of as barbaric and criminal. Rewind however to Roman governments, where a man who couldn't be killed but by the swords of a thousand men would be honored. The British Society looks upon Adolf Hitler as a self-indulgent, evil dictator who destroyed thousands of lives. Nazi Germany viewed Hitler as a hero,a prime among men. Throughout a near never ending war towards France, Hitler accomplished what no one else could, taking over France. Is true greatness and prosperity holding hands around the earth while singing Kumbaya? Is the king of the hill, the last one standing, truly the alpha male, the best of the best?
All is true. Based on the Value of Opinion, all of this is Human thought. How can one dismiss each or any of these theories without using morality to say that one is better than the other? No matter how many people agree against one person, each opinion is one, as in Democracy is one idea, and the amount of people who believe in it is it's exponential factor. Meaning that 1 to the one billionth power, is still one, making it no better than theocracy or other forms of government, because despite every possibly debate against it, it is still all human opinion.
3
Morality itself.
Morality is the superego we as humans live by. How can we live and succeed in life but by living by morality? we need to take into account every one of our actions and what those action will do in the end. Will taking this test benefit my future? Should I tell my parents that I'm gay? Is she really right for me? So what? What if?
Take all of this into account, and life will look at you right before you.
Shine today like no other.
The First is who you are. There are three possibilities for this.
A) The Conformist
Conformism bends and molds to whatever lies around it. Therefore, the conformist will accept anything and anyone presented to them, dismissing any possible opinion and simply basing their reason the the sole fact of being accepted. Though Conformism will lead to you being accepted almost as easily as you accept that which is around you, you still deny yourself the right of personal taste and personal thought.
B) Anti-conformism
As the name implies, anti-conformism is the negative to A. Anti-conformism denotes the denying of anything that would lead you to be accepted. Anti-conformists prefer to make a name for themselves by being a reject, an outcast, different beyond the normal bounds of society. This also entails that anything "popular" must be hated. Though this path does give a feeling and a need for self reliance and self-expression, it is still not the full ideal for thought.
C) C
Choice. C is for Choice. It doesn't matter what you want other people to see you as or what you want people to think about you, good or bad. You like, dislike, accept, reject, buy or sell whatever you want based on what you enjoy. If you don't enjoy it, you get rid of it. If you do, see if it is truly right for you, i.e. it's safe, and then accept it. This does not mean that you should ignore law, it means that you create hobbies for yourself, your personal tastes, based on what you think, and not by crafting your opinion based on society. Even anti-conformism bounds its limits by forcing itself to be the negative nature of conformism, dismissing any desire to enjoy something they could enjoy, even if it's "popular" or "commonly accepted"
the second thing to remember is the Value of Opinion
After writing, "How to Kill a Conscience" (Not the journal, an essay, I will submit it soon) I discussed it with an intelligent teacher of mind and discovered the Value of Opinion, a simple theory, with a very complex background.
The Value of Opinion states that all opinion is equal, no matter what, whilst dismissing morality. Morality being the % of how an event and it's outcome affect the person and the people around the actor. The Value Of Opinion means that, while ignoring morality, any thought, belief, or idea is truth, and never wrong, based on the system of thought it fits within. Par example, The American society believes that compassion is a trait to be desired, and to be ruthless and merciless is a trait thought of as barbaric and criminal. Rewind however to Roman governments, where a man who couldn't be killed but by the swords of a thousand men would be honored. The British Society looks upon Adolf Hitler as a self-indulgent, evil dictator who destroyed thousands of lives. Nazi Germany viewed Hitler as a hero,a prime among men. Throughout a near never ending war towards France, Hitler accomplished what no one else could, taking over France. Is true greatness and prosperity holding hands around the earth while singing Kumbaya? Is the king of the hill, the last one standing, truly the alpha male, the best of the best?
All is true. Based on the Value of Opinion, all of this is Human thought. How can one dismiss each or any of these theories without using morality to say that one is better than the other? No matter how many people agree against one person, each opinion is one, as in Democracy is one idea, and the amount of people who believe in it is it's exponential factor. Meaning that 1 to the one billionth power, is still one, making it no better than theocracy or other forms of government, because despite every possibly debate against it, it is still all human opinion.
3
Morality itself.
Morality is the superego we as humans live by. How can we live and succeed in life but by living by morality? we need to take into account every one of our actions and what those action will do in the end. Will taking this test benefit my future? Should I tell my parents that I'm gay? Is she really right for me? So what? What if?
Take all of this into account, and life will look at you right before you.
Shine today like no other.
Almost half a year ago I wrote this to find myself, and I refuse
to read it, but I will allow you to. Enjoy.
Have you ever worked so hard that your mind just stops? That happened to me one time. A while ago, actually. It happens every once in a lifetime, but it happens often. For me, it means no emotions, you can hardly maintain a friend, and a relationship is basically a barely maintained title. What does it mean to be anything. Is there a different between a trait and a problem. Am I even talking to my self right now, or just you? I wonder sometimes. Is it better to scream out alive, or scream to myself? Is the smell of the intoxicating vanilla that is neither mine, nor anyone's, more appealing than that of a person? Is vanilla a person? Shall my conscience never leave me? Is it a coincidence, that the one side of my conscience, that which represents evil, and the other, that represents good, both start with K? Be it more coincidence that I am both fatally attracted to them? Why must a mind be so split in two when Mine is split in 6?
Does that mean I am 12? And shall a life, so controversial already, become even more so by the touch of another human being, and the departing of another. O, how God works in Mysterious ways. If only I were an illustrator, then I could depict this perfectly. I love my life, but also wish it could slow down to an absolute halt instead of simply 5 miles an hour. Be myself the problem? Is there even a problem? Can I go on living as I am now, waiting it out, to see the outcome of unforeseen events, so as to better myself within the circumstances, changed thereby outside of my control? I should think so. For for me to forget the scent of vanilla, she must find a new beholder, one of darker skin, and slimmer grace. And for me to know my other, I must have her for a time. And for my consciences to have so much, and so little in common with each other, is something that I simply laugh about. To think, serial killing and suicide to be options. Posh. I splendor at the thought of a life well lived, not one where one simply gives up. For life can be like a game. A game where one may have the best option of waiting. Overcoming circumstances by letting them be overcome by themselves. And for me, a simple human being, to remain in this solitary state, portraying my own thoughts to a digital piece of paper, may have been all I needed in the first place. Though my mind be at ease, and my conscience at rest, tonight is a night I shall not forget.
Have you ever worked so hard that your mind just stops? That happened to me one time. A while ago, actually. It happens every once in a lifetime, but it happens often. For me, it means no emotions, you can hardly maintain a friend, and a relationship is basically a barely maintained title. What does it mean to be anything. Is there a different between a trait and a problem. Am I even talking to my self right now, or just you? I wonder sometimes. Is it better to scream out alive, or scream to myself? Is the smell of the intoxicating vanilla that is neither mine, nor anyone's, more appealing than that of a person? Is vanilla a person? Shall my conscience never leave me? Is it a coincidence, that the one side of my conscience, that which represents evil, and the other, that represents good, both start with K? Be it more coincidence that I am both fatally attracted to them? Why must a mind be so split in two when Mine is split in 6?
Does that mean I am 12? And shall a life, so controversial already, become even more so by the touch of another human being, and the departing of another. O, how God works in Mysterious ways. If only I were an illustrator, then I could depict this perfectly. I love my life, but also wish it could slow down to an absolute halt instead of simply 5 miles an hour. Be myself the problem? Is there even a problem? Can I go on living as I am now, waiting it out, to see the outcome of unforeseen events, so as to better myself within the circumstances, changed thereby outside of my control? I should think so. For for me to forget the scent of vanilla, she must find a new beholder, one of darker skin, and slimmer grace. And for me to know my other, I must have her for a time. And for my consciences to have so much, and so little in common with each other, is something that I simply laugh about. To think, serial killing and suicide to be options. Posh. I splendor at the thought of a life well lived, not one where one simply gives up. For life can be like a game. A game where one may have the best option of waiting. Overcoming circumstances by letting them be overcome by themselves. And for me, a simple human being, to remain in this solitary state, portraying my own thoughts to a digital piece of paper, may have been all I needed in the first place. Though my mind be at ease, and my conscience at rest, tonight is a night I shall not forget.
Though My teachings are usually scripted solely based upon their
own, I present to you, a new way of thinking about my lessons. Here is a paper
that I did for my Composition English Class today. Enjoy.
Thomas Agrusti
Mr. Molloy
Honors Composition English
October 5, 2010
Race for Nationalism in High School
"The Corridor of Champions" reads over Manchester's main hallway. Every human being falls into the desire to become the alpha male or alpha female, to best and the brightest. We are encouraged to ace every test, become the MVP in our respective sports, and excel to become the best we can be. But what happens when in that pursuit, we fall into a vision that not only should we do our best, but we are the best? Many are easily led into this delusion. The idea of dominance in a high school can be dangerous, especially when it is led astray into other arenas.
Suppose a white male Christian believes himself to be the alpha male, and he then proclaims in his own mind that every factor about him defines the perfect human. This leads to the degeneration of the child's human compassion. With him being the best of the best, an African American couldn't possibly be better than him, nor could a Jew or a girl. This attitude can be both dangerous to himself and his peers. Imagine if in the clique of jocks that he spends time with, he spreads this philosophy onto them. Soon, you have a gang of high school teenagers who seek not just dominance, but to dominate. A simple belief led into hate and anger.
(Dear Mr. Molloy,
After a period of struggle in discussing this topic and obviously going off the vague grounds set by this topic, I feel a need to speak my mind. (don't worry, I'll try not to make this a reoccurring theme in my essays) Personally, I have never had any thoughts on racism. I have never witnesses it in my everyday life, I have never struggled with it, I have never dealt with it. I question whether I have heard any tales of ridicule or mistreatment from my peers about their experiences with racism. I have heard about friends not being accepted for their ethnicity, such as a muslim friend who was mocked as a terrorist, but I have little to now knowledge of the subject. One of the many problems that I have in discussing this topic is when I debate in my own mind about conditioning. You see, Mr. Molloy, I have been, and when I say "Have been known", I speak in a sense of my mind is self aware of itself and its actions, not other people notice this, just myself, but I have been known for dropping the culuture and theology of America, and in some rare cases, humanity. I view many, if not all, thoughts and beliefs to be by-products of a mixture of conditioning. For this reason, I ask the question, "How can racism be wrong in America in today's day and age, but 200 years ago, back in the presidency of Andrew Jackson, racism was a fuel that helped us 'claim the land that was ours from the bloody and savage red skins'?" I ask "How is it that 'Thou shalt not kill' yet the Catholic Church will sometimes lead to justify the Crusades?" I wonder "What is morality? How can one define what is right and what is wrong?" True and it could be said, as I have in past essays, Morality can be defined as the prescence and knowledge, or consequence in action, that whatever a person does, that action will lead to an ultimate or overall benefit or penalty to all parties. Therefore, killing is "wrong" since it would hurt those around them but satisfy the killer. This means, while not totally and completely evil, despite America's and Christianity's claims, it is, overall, evil. In the same way, Taxing can be a three way street. In one direction, it is "wrong" for taking the citizens hard earned money away from them. In another, it is good for making the king or leader or city richer and wealthier, making life easier. And the third, it can be equal, since it does both of these as well as taking money away from the federal government and giving services back to the people for their taxes being paid. Therefore, it is debatable whether Racism is even wrong. However, it can also be debated whether it can be right. Can an army filled with rage and unacceptance to another race, intolerance for another religion, and disgust in the idea of another ethnicity other than their own, possibly fight and lead stronger than if it were led "humanly" with "compassion for fellow man" and "acceptance of our differences?" Because I wonder these things. I do not feel that I can right a strong essay. However, after saying all of this, I would like to finish this essay, remembering and keeping in mind everything I have just discussed. Good Day to you, sir.
Sincerely,
Thomas Agrusti)
IN a world covered with mixed opinions and controversy though, a man or woman must wonder, is racism wrong? Can a man fueled by it fight for his country stronger than if he we taught to "accept the differences of others?" The Nazi's were led to believe that Jews were inhuman abominations. Did they think it was wrong to think that way? Absolutley not; as a matter of fact, the more you believed it, the better you were to your fellow man. But look at the Jewish people. Did they think the genocide leading across Europe was justified? Opposing opinions will always dominate our inner conscience and lead our thoughts to think whatever they want to think.
Leading back to the debate about high school and a child's acceptance, a student would be more easily led to accept those around them, so as to be accepted themselves. Rejection is met with rejection, and vice versa. Racism is a fire, and fire can be viewed in many ways. It can burn down a nursery and claim the lives of thousands, or it can cook the fire that makes a meal edible. Fire can light the way through a series of darkened caverns, leading to a great treasure, which then leads to shining greed, and then lead to imminent death. Fire can lead to hatred, after a gang burns down a Bronx born student's home, causing him to detest the men who did this to him, and causing him to live a life in secluded rebellion to those with another color coating their skin.
If Racism is wrong, then so is thought. If dominance is wrong, than we lead ourselves to believe that a life of weakness is right. These beliefs lead to a hippocritical America. IS this the kind of life that we promote in our high schools? Well, it certainly isn't the one we were thinking of. What am I aming to prove? That Racism is neither right, nor wrong, but a simple conception of human thought, that we link a pointless meaning to, much like many of the random actions that we commit throughout our hundred years banned lives. Good day.
Thomas Agrusti
Mr. Molloy
Honors Composition English
October 5, 2010
Race for Nationalism in High School
"The Corridor of Champions" reads over Manchester's main hallway. Every human being falls into the desire to become the alpha male or alpha female, to best and the brightest. We are encouraged to ace every test, become the MVP in our respective sports, and excel to become the best we can be. But what happens when in that pursuit, we fall into a vision that not only should we do our best, but we are the best? Many are easily led into this delusion. The idea of dominance in a high school can be dangerous, especially when it is led astray into other arenas.
Suppose a white male Christian believes himself to be the alpha male, and he then proclaims in his own mind that every factor about him defines the perfect human. This leads to the degeneration of the child's human compassion. With him being the best of the best, an African American couldn't possibly be better than him, nor could a Jew or a girl. This attitude can be both dangerous to himself and his peers. Imagine if in the clique of jocks that he spends time with, he spreads this philosophy onto them. Soon, you have a gang of high school teenagers who seek not just dominance, but to dominate. A simple belief led into hate and anger.
(Dear Mr. Molloy,
After a period of struggle in discussing this topic and obviously going off the vague grounds set by this topic, I feel a need to speak my mind. (don't worry, I'll try not to make this a reoccurring theme in my essays) Personally, I have never had any thoughts on racism. I have never witnesses it in my everyday life, I have never struggled with it, I have never dealt with it. I question whether I have heard any tales of ridicule or mistreatment from my peers about their experiences with racism. I have heard about friends not being accepted for their ethnicity, such as a muslim friend who was mocked as a terrorist, but I have little to now knowledge of the subject. One of the many problems that I have in discussing this topic is when I debate in my own mind about conditioning. You see, Mr. Molloy, I have been, and when I say "Have been known", I speak in a sense of my mind is self aware of itself and its actions, not other people notice this, just myself, but I have been known for dropping the culuture and theology of America, and in some rare cases, humanity. I view many, if not all, thoughts and beliefs to be by-products of a mixture of conditioning. For this reason, I ask the question, "How can racism be wrong in America in today's day and age, but 200 years ago, back in the presidency of Andrew Jackson, racism was a fuel that helped us 'claim the land that was ours from the bloody and savage red skins'?" I ask "How is it that 'Thou shalt not kill' yet the Catholic Church will sometimes lead to justify the Crusades?" I wonder "What is morality? How can one define what is right and what is wrong?" True and it could be said, as I have in past essays, Morality can be defined as the prescence and knowledge, or consequence in action, that whatever a person does, that action will lead to an ultimate or overall benefit or penalty to all parties. Therefore, killing is "wrong" since it would hurt those around them but satisfy the killer. This means, while not totally and completely evil, despite America's and Christianity's claims, it is, overall, evil. In the same way, Taxing can be a three way street. In one direction, it is "wrong" for taking the citizens hard earned money away from them. In another, it is good for making the king or leader or city richer and wealthier, making life easier. And the third, it can be equal, since it does both of these as well as taking money away from the federal government and giving services back to the people for their taxes being paid. Therefore, it is debatable whether Racism is even wrong. However, it can also be debated whether it can be right. Can an army filled with rage and unacceptance to another race, intolerance for another religion, and disgust in the idea of another ethnicity other than their own, possibly fight and lead stronger than if it were led "humanly" with "compassion for fellow man" and "acceptance of our differences?" Because I wonder these things. I do not feel that I can right a strong essay. However, after saying all of this, I would like to finish this essay, remembering and keeping in mind everything I have just discussed. Good Day to you, sir.
Sincerely,
Thomas Agrusti)
IN a world covered with mixed opinions and controversy though, a man or woman must wonder, is racism wrong? Can a man fueled by it fight for his country stronger than if he we taught to "accept the differences of others?" The Nazi's were led to believe that Jews were inhuman abominations. Did they think it was wrong to think that way? Absolutley not; as a matter of fact, the more you believed it, the better you were to your fellow man. But look at the Jewish people. Did they think the genocide leading across Europe was justified? Opposing opinions will always dominate our inner conscience and lead our thoughts to think whatever they want to think.
Leading back to the debate about high school and a child's acceptance, a student would be more easily led to accept those around them, so as to be accepted themselves. Rejection is met with rejection, and vice versa. Racism is a fire, and fire can be viewed in many ways. It can burn down a nursery and claim the lives of thousands, or it can cook the fire that makes a meal edible. Fire can light the way through a series of darkened caverns, leading to a great treasure, which then leads to shining greed, and then lead to imminent death. Fire can lead to hatred, after a gang burns down a Bronx born student's home, causing him to detest the men who did this to him, and causing him to live a life in secluded rebellion to those with another color coating their skin.
If Racism is wrong, then so is thought. If dominance is wrong, than we lead ourselves to believe that a life of weakness is right. These beliefs lead to a hippocritical America. IS this the kind of life that we promote in our high schools? Well, it certainly isn't the one we were thinking of. What am I aming to prove? That Racism is neither right, nor wrong, but a simple conception of human thought, that we link a pointless meaning to, much like many of the random actions that we commit throughout our hundred years banned lives. Good day.
Nirvana. If you've ever felt it, you know what It feels like. It
is a time in your life when everything falls into place, the problem is solved,
the mind is at ease, and everything is perfect. You don't want to do anything
in fear of losing it. Life is one of our endless struggles to find it and not
lose it. Whether it be saving a life, finding her or him, taking a change,
taking a chance, letting go, or grabbing on, you will obtain it with the
extreme drives that life gives us. Life and love both begin and end the same
way for a reason. Figure our why, and you will have a pieve of wisdom that no
man or woman could ever imagine. Shine today Like no other!
Never Have I been more
Happy. Why? I know myself. It is a self-actualization period that all men and
women shall go through in their life, through trial and error, when they will
finally realize their true happiness, their absolute euphoric time and place.
Who you are defines who you have fun, and vice versa. If there is no way you
can have fun, then you don't know who you are and what you enjoy. If you don't
know who you are, it id near impossible for you to truly have fun. I am
personally at my happiest when I am home alone, with lostprophets playing
through my laptop speakers, sandwich materials and fruit strewn across my
dining room table, with a guitar next to me, the 2 PM weekend sun pouring in
through the surrounding, vegetation inhabited windows. That is when I am at my
happiest. It took me unspeakable trials and misery to finally reach this point
in my life. Find your place where you are most happy. You will more than likely
trip upon it by accident like I did, but you will surely know when you have
found it. It is there that you will know who you will be for the rest of your
life. Find that place, and you shall find yourself. Shine today like no other.
Never Have I been more Happy. Why? I know myself. It is a
self-actualization period that all men and women shall go through in their
life, through trial and error, when they will finally realize their true
happiness, their absolute euphoric time and place. Who you are defines who you
have fun, and vice versa. If there is no way you can have fun, then you don't
know who you are and what you enjoy. If you don't know who you are, it id near
impossible for you to truly have fun. I am personally at my happiest when I am
home alone, with lostprophets playing through my laptop speakers, sandwich
materials and fruit strewn across my dining room table, with a guitar next to
me, the 2 PM weekend sun pouring in through the surrounding, vegetation
inhabited windows. That is when I am at my happiest. It took me unspeakable
trials and misery to finally reach this point in my life. Find your place where
you are most happy. You will more than likely trip upon it by accident like I
did, but you will surely know when you have found it. It is there that you will
know who you will be for the rest of your life. Find that place, and you shall
find yourself. Shine today like no other.
There are two parts to the human person:the body and the mind.
Both act indecisivley from each other. This is to say that the mind may think
one opinion, and the body may choose to agree or disagree with this statement.
However, the mind may know that something by its definition is morally wrong by
the subjected person's outlook on morality, but the body will still be tempted
and urged to do so. Therefore, a person must learn to have the undecided
ability to unite the mind and the body. Only in life situations, pertaining to
those of speech and emotion, only the mind can alter these, since it is the
mind that conceives the emotions, purveys them, and understands them. The body
does not know what an emotion is. However, the body is not entirely useless
without the mind. If a desperate, physically demanding situation is brought to
hand, the body will be able to work on its own with no coincidence of the mind
itself. This is when an adrenaline rush is experienced and the body takes over
to deem its dominance in such a situation. The mind is overall useful for
everything pertaining to the mind, that is philosophy, psychology, and so
forth, while the body is perceptive of it's own needs. The mind will make
demands when the body will will not agree. The body wants sexual intercourse,
for example, while the mind will usually have no demand or need for sex. The
mind may believe it wants it, but only based on the request of the mind. The
mind wants love, love being defined as the commitment to both parties where
there will seek to support each other to equal needs, and will do most any
conceivable task to obtain that will provide mental stability. The body can not
perceive love, so it has no need for it. It may feel and express infatuation,
but most, if not all infatuation, is felt because of physical longing and
desire, and hardly emotional reasons. I view that living by the mind is the
best way for life to be lived. Theoretically, the mind has no real
boundaries. The body has restrictions. The body in everyday dystopia, can not
make sound decisions for the betterment of the entire whole. Thus far, I ask
you, trust you mind, exercise it, and experience it, for your mind will take
you farther than your body ever could. Denying the physical desires and
temptations will make all stronger, and better you for life in and of itself.
Shine today like no other!
Humans travel in a loop, on several, many, if not all frequent
occasions. I say this in the means of temptation towards relapse. I myself have
noticed several problems that arise, disappear, and then rise up again,
resurfacing into my ever wandering life. Several other humans follow this suit
as well. It almost seems as though we never really outgrow our old probelms. We
simply fit into new ones of the same color and shape, only a differnt size.
Though we change from a 12 year old mind to a 12th grade mind does not mean
that a boy's perverted mind, or a girl's lust for attention, or a parents
oversecurity, or a mothers ignorance to her effect on her daughter, ever really
changes. These things happen again and again, and we as humans either fail to
acknowledge them, or simply commit to the old, "pity me", relapse
message, "I'm trying, but nothing's working." The inaudible part to
this is the mental conscience stating "oh well, try, try again, and if I
fail, so be it, I'll just continue through life wearing this burden like a
cement shoe. Sure it'll be harder but, hey, isn't that what makes you
stronger?" The less audible part under this layer of thought is, "if
it doesn't rip off my leg first." A tragic flaw is a trait in a character,
usually the protaganist, that causes the downfall of the hero, in most cases
being death. This can be anything from Vanity and excessive confidence and
pride, to a phobia, or a sin and addiction that drives you into a slippery pit
you can't crawl out of. There are occasions in our lives where we find
ourselves in these messes, or find eachother. This is when sympathy and
patience become key in a person's conscience in order to be a friend. This is
how I've come to love my friends over the years. Most of them have heard my
entreaty over my perverted sin countless times, and are still there to support
me and offer advice, which I gratefully take, though it may not always take
effect or settle quite effectivley, and this spawns a new trial and error
effect. Men and Women alike have published books, websites, and all other
sources of help to keep others out of these messes that they have experienced
so that we don't simply loop around back to where we were again, but when we
read these, we label the obvious, which credits our intelligence, and delete
the "in between", which discredits our intelligence, and casues no
further progress, since you "read what you already knew," which is
true in both a literal sense and a moral/psychological sense. In closing, I
simply ask that you heed the advice of elders and peers. Most times they can
help, and action is the only path to salvation, as opposed to petty, empty
hope. Shine today like no other!
How emotions do confuse me. Recently, I met a girl who I
believed to be perfectly wonderful, not perfect, but incredible in many
definitions. I dreamed of her and yearned for her, asking God what to do, and
pondering how to be with her one day. After meeting her, introducing eachother,
I lost all hope when I asked for her opinion on a peom and she simply turned
away from me. This turntable of events has left me with strange dilemas that I
could have never even imagined. Currently, I miss a girl who I lost and never
had. I dream when I listen to music and envision a life with a girl like the
one I lost, but a life that is of light, yet loss. I love this girl that I
imagine, and ponder the day that I meet her. Infatuation is the hypnotist of
emotions. I realized that because of this "crush" I traveled down a
landslide of thoughts, dreams, fantasies, emotions, loves, loss, and
imagination, and just the fact of how amazing it was to go through it all and
think of how I still might not be done with this adventure. Love, what do you
know, how it can change a person. I do believe that I am not done with this life.
But if I do, I will be listening to this track that I remember and imagining
the events that never happened. How beautiful she is, and How out of reach she
became. Man wants that which he can not have, and near obsesses over that which
he can never obtain. How ironic that we crave the farthest, yet that which is
far is what entices us. We always want more. The impossible is our goal and the
inferior is our inferior. We are discontent with that which is possible and
easy. But so is love. Love makes no sense. It never does, and is irrelevant,
has no logic, so many extremems that make no sense. How I love the love that
love makes no sense. How are you today? Are you in love? Get in it. You'll love
it, hate it, and be confused while sitting in confusion(For example, the title
of this entry is actually Love, Life, Confusion and Emotions in all that, you
just think it isn't). Happy trails follower of human nature, for that is who we
are and how we act, live and love. How overjoyed I am to tell you this all. Shine
today like no other.
Happiness. That is the
meaning of life. It is the true meaning of life. I mean, think about it. We
work and get an education. Why? TO get money. For what purpose? So that we will
have less worries, and their by create less stress, and give more room for
personal enjoyment. We spend a lot of this money to make ourselves more
attractive. Why? So that a likely mate will notice and take a liking to and be
with us. For what purpose? To be happy, to experience a happiness that can't be
attained any other way. So many of the things that we do or the tasks that we
take or the things that we pursue are in the pursuit of happiness. That is what
most topics center around. Governments work to make the best living environment
for the people to inhabit. Everything done by rulers is either to keep the
people content and happy or the ruler themselves happy, or at least happier
than those around them. While purposes and methods of attaining happiness may
be different, they are all to receive happiness. Drugs make a person high. An
orgasm gives great pleasure. Pride give you a sense of joy. Society demeans
these things because, while they do give happiness to one person, the happiness
is short lived and must be renewed regularly, it simultaneously takes happiness
away from someone else. Good sportsmanship inhibits happiness is all people,
the giver and the receiver. this is how society is meant to be lived. The
Christian religion and many other religions work to give all people this
happiness. In no way does it ask you to be miserable or to work for purposeless
reasons. It calls for us to be humble so that no one thinks of themselves as
worthless or less than any other, where all people are equal. It
asks us to give to the poor to make everyone self sustainable, if everyone was
of equal finance, no one would have to worry about wealth and there would be a
lot less stress in the world. All things that are encouraged give good results.
If morals are broken and thought to be justified, then there must be a reason
for being in a position that called for those morals to be broken. Take the
classic, "Stealing isn't always wrong" challenge. "Well, if a woman
has no money and needs to feed her kids, isn't it right to steal then?"
Well, in response, I ask you this. Why does the mother have no money to sustain
herself, why is she a hinted single mother, and how did she seek to deliver
children if she wasn't absolutely sure that she could support them. When it is
revealed that a person justifying stealing could be an 18 year old girl who got
carried away and was careless, only to be put into a position of poverty, it
becomes evident that her own mistakes were the cause of her misery in the first
place. Think of God now. People say how he is vengeful, but the reason is to
get your attention or to discipline you. If a little boy tried to put a penny
in a light socket, and the mother simply said "Don't do that," the
little boy's curiosity is eventually going to outweigh the mothers bidding and
cause him to injure himself. Now, if the mother picked the child up and either
"Firmly said don't do that" or hit the child, yes it is looked down
upon, but nonetheless interjects a soft immediate pain with a lasting and
intense one. Discipline, it teaches you and crafts character to you. it is the
reason for all things. The mother doesn't want her child to be hurt, she wants
him to be happy, and it is by that that she is called to discipline her son. it
is frowned upon, but it is necessary. It is only the short minded who would
come to say "So you would hit your children, you horrible man" only
because their minds can process "Pain=bad" and not much else or much
further. People take the "Stealing isn't always wrong" challenge with
gusto because it is a contrasting step that they believe enables them to seem
intelligent, when really the argument can be laid to rest as I have done
here. In closing, I believe that the meaning of life is simply the
much revered "Pursuit of Happiness". Remember this and know that the
only way to attain eternal, justifiable happiness is to use pure methods, and
no other way, even if it takes self sacrifice, that which you give will be paid
back tenfold, trust me. Shine to day like no other.
In a way, people have forgotten the meaning of self worth, and
this, in a different way, but slightly similar, entertwines itself with the
meaning of life. nwo, what does self worth mean to you? Is it how many people
notice your new clothes, fashion, religious kick, motivational movement, hobby,
interest, or other outlet for your time and attention that's soul prpoose is to
get that attention and gratification from those around you who you put so much
importan ce of judging who you are based on their opinions and their personal
interests? Is is materialism? THe more stuff you own the better person you are?
this has a twinge of truth to it because in order to obtain objects of worth,
you need currency, and that currency is obtained through work, meaning using
your time and attention for something to keep a chain going and a society
functioning and giving you your fix based on your daily rate of progress,
allowing you to fulfill your own personal needs and desires in a way that
benefits their needs and yours? Is it your accomplishments? The
feats that you can obtain, the lengths tha you can go, the numbers you can
conquer, the people you can beat, the awards you obtain, the gratification you
have recieved, the admireres you have influenced? is it the perc entage of your
day by which you are happy and by what self justifiable ways that you obtain
this happiness? see innocence is all diferent things to different people when
you think of an action as solely that, an action, forget all you know about
morales and think about things in a matter of positives and
negatives. If a person weeds their entire yard, they will become
phyically healthy due to the balance of the world and they will also be able to
look at the yard that is now weed free with a sense of pride and accomplishment
because they did it, their work prevailed by their personal strength, will, and
determination, rid the yard of all weeds. so the fitness is a plus,
the pride is a minus, and, in a way, the happiness is a lus. The pride is a
minus because that pride may intice and influence the daily workings of how
they view the world in comparision to themselves. See, self worth. Pride and
selfworth are two completely diferent,. and should be unrelated thigns in my
book. Now compare this to masturbation. Yes, the whole taboo of the world,
disgraced by the church, adored by the people, kept in secret from the
public. Masturbation gives a person a reach to fantasy, an orgasm
which is a spike of temporary extreme happiness, and an outlook at the opposite
sex in a different indferior manner. Now, this outreach to fantasy is probably
the most harmful. Reason? it disallows them to properly function within the
bounds of reality, which is the root cause to many disfunctions commonly
associated with masturbation, which leads it to be taboo, because even though
that nhigh is pleasurabe at the time, it drags out into the rest of your life.
now this is why we have set up mrals, to seperate the beneficial from the
harmful. However, some things have been subconsciously tabooed in a way to
benefit some, but not all. Instead of me explaining these,i am going to give
you the opprotunity to think of somethings that should be commonly accepted and
practiced, but aren't, because of the negative and positive worht that they are
to some people. I have found that in this world, sadly, yet happily, there is
nothing that is 100% wrong/bad or 100% right/good. For example, while donating
to charity is good because it helps all of those around you who need
the money, it puts you out of something that you need to support yourself.
Murder is bad because you are ending a persons life and tragically upsetting
the balance and hearts of those connected to them, but is good because that
reason for killing them, be it stress, financial stress, or other reasons, is
now solved. The reason people would say that charity is better than murder, is
becuase of the [ercentages. While charity is 78% good ( a majority, the other
22% being the minority to denote to its negativity) and Murder has a percentage
of being 89% bad(leaving only 11% of good that people hardly consider from a
philisophical standpoint). I would ask and dare anyone to try to find something
that is a full 100% evil or 100% good, because i ensure you that i will find at
least a 0.001% of the minority to combat the majority. Take these ideas to
heart, and learn from them to think about your life, who you are, what self
worth is truly about, and what you can do or not do to make the best out of the
precious life that you have been given. Shine today like no other.
When you abandon the fear of death, you lose the meaning of
life. In a world where no one can care whether they live or die, is when we
become non-existent, when nothing we do matters. whether we hurt or pain is
only another piece to that puzzle that we tend to ignore that that we have
abandoned that fear. We are no longer burdened by the end, only the the effects
that come with its nearing. Age can bend a person's will because of its limitation,
but it can never bend the mind in all of its wisdom. The body decays as it
heads towards it fatal grave of death, whether we fear it or not, but the mind
can live on. In several texts it is told how the spirit lives on, consciousness
lives on, only without the body. SO it makes a large point in our knowing of
where we go after we die, of how, after we have left the physical world, there
is still another step after that that we go to take, another path still left to
be explored. Perhaps that is why we abandon fear. For hope that we may learn
early on about this next step, its existence and what it has entailed for us to
do when we take it so that we are not ill-prepared for its
coming. For man to appreciate his life, he must understand the
meaning behind his death. We can never deem our lives to be meaningful until we
look back upon it in the end. Imagine a person who took 90 years to build the
world and 10 to destroy it before dying. Can this man say that he lived a
meaningful life because of his near century of work, followed by the
destruction of that that he toiled over for years? Can he rest knowing of his
deeds? It is with our death that we realize our past fortune, and continue on
to better whatever is left after our departure, to know how to go on with it
all and continue on this path tht we have never known. Ponder this, and you can
understand the meaning between life and death, fear and salvation, truth and
power, love and hate, and all other meanings of God and man, for philosophy
knows no religion. Philosophy deals with man, and only man, its shortcomings
and its achievements of the mind, nothing more, only psychology within the
context of moral value, does philosophy have any power to deem over anything.
So understand philosophy to understand religion, in the same way that we take
into accountance all of the other counter-examples. There is no light without
dark, nor is there truth without lies. Understand al of this, and you will
prevail. Shine today like no other.
It is amazing how most human beings have created the innate
ability inside their own subconscious minds to realize something great,
powerful, and inspirational, and shunt it off as soon as it becomes too much
work. We call them "kicks", and they can range from the
things that don't really matter like a scrap-booking kick or a house-cleaning
kit, or as seriously-as-to-not-be-tampered-with kind such as sexual exploration
and openness or religion. We are so bent on keeping our lifestyle at
the exact pace that they are at all the time that we reject revelations that
could aid us or even save us, all for the purpose of holding quality and
convenience to our lives. Think about the way that the world has been devolving
over the years. When the pilgrims landed in America, It was revered
as a religious journey. They were so convicted to keeping religion,
by whatever means it took. They had one of the most complex
languages that could be related to the one that we know and use
today. They understood the importance of how reverence and good
character are what make great men and women. Look at us. We
push religion to the side as another part of the everyday life, attending
churches and synagogues because we feel obligated to, we feel we need to, and
for almost no greater purpose. We have simplified our language to
speak that can be replicated by even a youth. We revere men and women
who took the easy way out, who are selfish and self-loving, or sometimes even
self-loathing. What kind of people are we that we can justify this kind of
life. Before we know it, we forget those things that should have
been so important to us. We go on living and do not realize what mistakes we
have made until, and I hate to use the cliche phrase but save it for its truth,
it's too late. We begin to realize what matters in life when we are
almost forced to stop and look around at the world. However, though this time
may bring forth incredible discoveries of the human heart and mind, it grants
no mercy for the fact that at this age, your options and possibilities are so
limited that it becomes semi-useless for you to use it to help others who
inhabit the world. You are simply viewed as another shameful
prophet, seeking to ruin the balance that human beings crave to
keep. They eventually go into this stage for themselves, after
disregarding their elders' warnings, and pass on in the circle of lives, the
very same way as well. Astounding what a vicious cycle we have
created of silencing the wise and well taught to keep our own selfish desires.
Because we don't want to give up the time to read, spend the thought power to
think, and give the effort that it takes to learn and listen. We are
too overconfident in ourselves and so blinded by our pride that we forget the
functions that the body needs the most. Pride leads to our
arrogance, which blocks out any and all outside sources of information that
would make us look at ourselves and inferior to any other person who exists in
the world. Arrogance in turn leads to ignorance, which becomes the absence of
any knowledge that could have helped you out. Ignorance leads to
exile in the end, as you who were once an abiding drone in the system that
human kind had manufactured for years, becomes one of the others who tries to
upset that precious balance of pointless, meaningless
existence. Now, this is not to say that life itself is meaningless,
heavens, No. A life where the only thing you crave after and live
for is ignorance is a meaningless existence. However, if we attempted, and by
the grace of the powers that be, succeeded in creating a world free of
desperation and distraught, then maybe we could create something that mattered.
Maybe then, this dystopia we have been forming will be shattered, and be
replaced with the commonly rumored, but never revealed,
utopia. Maybe then, we could have meaning. Maybe then, we could be
happy. Shine today like no other!
I would believe that it is the job of a teenager to live, dream
of love, react to different events that happen to them within time, dream of a
future, have and incorporate friends into their life, have a purpose, and do
all of these things within the confines of reality and society, two things that
hardly coincide to agree with each other when all of the facts finally come
down to it. However, a purpose in life can either be as easy to find, or as
difficult to realize as it is to actually find that true love that we so dream
of since the day of our beheldment, or the day when thought becomes active for
those of us who live. It is also a natural reaction in life to try to better
ourselves, not for its own sake, but for the approval of those around us, which
ties into the need and desire for a purpose in life, which is also connected to
the idea that self importance is a meaning to live. A simple thing that is
withheld and sought after is simply words that can be uttered by any person,
yet they become so powerful because of the tags that we assign to them. Now
this pride can be found in any human being with a heart that can be corrupted
and swayed, myself included, prime reason i decide to talk in a sophisticated
manner, this way, when people read my entries, they take it seriously and read
on, viewing me in a light of respect. This is how i hope to be viewed. It is a
sad cycle pursued by nearly the entire world. it is a hope of some,
or possibly few, to be rid of this human nature. Oh, how the world would be
different if human natures could be done away with. Fascinate by the extremity
of that kind of universe, with no greed or negativity whatsoever. Simply a
world where all is love and accepted. No manipulation, no lust, nothing. When i
mention lust, i do not imply the sexual desire for one another. I mean the
extreme desire to the extent where it becomes unnatural or unhealthy. I
am saddened, that of all the studies in the world, opposed to all the
organizations and projects that are currently working in the world, none have
been revealed to be working on this kind of goal. I am going to end this
journal here because i feel that it is not truly inspired by the personality of
me that desires to teach the world in the way that so many, if not all of my
previous entries are meant to do. Thank you for reading.
What would you do if you
were told that absolutely everything you had can and will be taken away from
you. Think about it. What would you do in that situation, if absolutely
everything, would be taken away from you. How would you feel? How would you
treat those closest to you? How would you treat those farthest from you? Would
you even consider them? And how would you treat your life? would you live it up
before it ended, like most human beings? Would you live any differently? Would
you try to med those past mistakes, fixed those past wrongs, and make a better
out of all the worse? It amazes me how the human mind will react when given
certain situation. Simple psychology can be so fascinated, when it is
translated into a complex fashion. Now this is not one of those silly things to
do to make things that are redundant sound smart, when they are still just as
redundant. No, I mean pondering the things that seem simple as though they were
complex. We always accept our own truths to be absolute, and that hinders us
from further learning. In fact this question is probably unasked on many
occasions other than chain messages send as simple annoyances, is not just that
the person could be viewed in a negative light. That they would be and outcast
and thought to disturb and disrupt the natural workings or that person being
asked the question and how their perfect world is thrown off balance. It is not
just that. It is also because the person who is afraid to ask someone else the
question, is afraid to ask themselves the very same one. It is found
that the word "utopia" is defined as a perfect place, and the human mind
aspires this because it is the absolute positive. Since the mind works in a
manner and system of positives and negatives, it will obviously make this
decision. However, this utopia for all is hardly ever obtained, let alone
dreamed about and rightfully pursued. Most of the times it is ignored and
thought impossible after many attempts tried and failed. The main reason we
could not acquire this Utopia could be the contradicting desires. It could be
as redundant as a world colored that person's favorite color while another
person may despise it. However, this is when what seems like a simple solution
can become complex. I think the reason why we do not pursue a utopia, is
because it would not only disrupt and throw off our natural ways of living, but
also force us to create a completely new life in this all perfect world. There
is also the fact that with no trouble, people would be likely to, i hate to say
it, get bored, and begin to make trouble to make life interesting, and then you
revert back to square one right back again. It is a never ending
cycle that will never happen because of fear. There is nothing to
fear but fear it self couldn't be more true. but think of it as a way that we
have coward so far back that fear has multiplied. In fact we can now not only
fear fear itself, but fear what fears is afraid of. This can mean two things.
Either A, we are fear and we begin to fear ourselves. Or B, there is an all
powerful being that even the people and things we begin to fear are afraid of.
It is all psychology, my friend, and i leave it up to you to ponder and think
about, which is the amazing thing about wisdom. To gain knowledge, you need
sources. You need a person telling you fact and fiction, true from false.
However, wisdom is obtained simply by life and thinking. Wisdom teaches morals
and the way of life. Right and wrong, life and death. Wisdom can be acquired
simply by thinking. Think about it one day. Shine today like no other.
Fantasy. thats the only word to describe it. Fantasy. That such
a world exists of such unbounding beauty and splendor, and we can only tell
stories and show pictures of it, is a torture that must be endured as long as
we extist. Fantasy describes what we want, in all innocence or in all
honesty. It reveals things we sometimes don't want to see, or things
we don't want to hear. It holds nothing back. And to
reach that state of mind, that area of ectstasy, where all life, and all of the
bounds set by humanity, are washed away, That, my friends, is the explanation
to many a things. It explains why we lay awake at night and why we
oversleep, or seek not to leave our beds. It is when our bodies are completley
still, yet our minds are more free than ever before, that we can think with
clarity and insight. When we are in the outside world, we are
expected to maintain order within our own bodies, something that is difficult
in itself, and then to use ourselves as a cog in man's
machine. However, when we go to sleep, or are sleeping, that is all
that is expected of us. To sit in a comfortable place and imagine,
dream, think, wonder, believe whatever you want to believe. You
don't have to do anything else. In bed you must do nothing, and with
that you should have no responsibilities, no stress, no worries. It
doesn't matter what must be done, what hasn't been done, only what your doing
now. This all, however, leads back to the fantasy world. A
realm of unimaginability, no chains to hold you back, but in that freedom, your
eyes are closed, you don't experience anything. None of it is
real. If a God truly does exist, then dreams must be his brochure to
the reward of loyalty. In heaven, as far as I can
imagine, you can do or have everything and anything, you create your own
reality, and may experience all the things you longed to experience when you
could not. THat is an amazing gift, and why we never question it ,
it is always there. Why we go after disloyalty is something my eyes
wish they could not see. Impatience is the reason. Think
about how dull it would be to wait in a room for 100 years, asked to do
nothing, but afterwards being guided to an oasis, a paradise, but while you are
in that room there is a backdoor. In the room is displeasure, and
sometimes that must be worked towards to attain happiness. The back
door offers another kind of satisfaction. The back door is the
opposite or the room. Good to Evil. Work towards pleasure to
pleasure to work. Then and Now. Yin and
Yang. It really potrays how the world works quite well when you
escape into your head and ignore reality. Zone out, and reach total
nirvana. That when anything can happy. All of the
coincidence that occurs in your life is not as such. Everything
happens for a reason, all wrongs have a consequence, and true happiness must be
worked for. These are the morals that i try to live by
everyday. I would like to suggest that you do the
same. You would be amazed at the results.
THe world is amazing, is it not? A person can spend a lifetime
trying to understand it, pass it to his kin, and only take a fraction of a step
in fully reaching the knowledge of everything in the world. We could
never go into the mind and figure it as to how it functions. We can
try, sure, but how would we even know when we have reached
understanding. Music, for one, is undefinable. It is one of the few
controlable things that can control something we can not see, but believe that
we do. Emotions are the core basis for all life, and one of the reasons
why the world is un-understandable. There are thousands of things
that one could do to indulge in emotions. My personal goal to do
this is stated in one of my favorite songs. The lostprophets sing in
"Rooftops" to 'Scream your heart out'. Try it. Go on your rooftop and
scream your heart out. Climb a mountain, and scream your heart
out. Find your true love, and scream your heart out with
her. Haven't found him or her yet? Don't worry, they haven't either.
they are out there. You can feel it. They can feel it. We yearn to find them
and the day will come when we do. THe escape into a persons eyes, a
fantasy world. Take your love and bring her to nature, out of
suburbia, and see how your love soars. I will not be able to explain to you how
it will be but i can say that it will be extravagant. I so do wish i
could define love. It would be a wisdom like fire. A
power that can burn the hand, numb the pain. A knowledge that countless have
sought and died for even. Poets seek it like a ghost, visible yet
out of grasp. there, a much better analogy, don't you think. Chase
your love to the end of the earth and don't stop there. Go
Farther. The world is cloudy and you must escape the way that life
seeks to hold you back. Mother earth is your domain. It always has
been. The urban world that we have made is simply a barrier that we
have cast over our own eyes, so that we may work to make that barrier
stronger. We must break through to the other side and see what is
intended for us. It is love and beauty, unimagibable and
unbelievable. Imagine something like that. An
unbelivable, unimaginable object. We can't. You can't go past the
human guideline of only thinking about what we know. We can, but we
can't figure out how. Music is a way to see past it, we just can't
silence the world enough to hear the music, really hear
it. Meditation, anguish, trial, experiance, all of these things
account to knowledge. We must see past the things that we cling
to. Think of all the temporary pleasures. Things that amount to
nothing but the happiness given through using the task for that time and that
time only. IT amounts to nothing. We need to build up.
Throw down the nonlasting objects that we are so attached to and step outside
or your comfort zone. It is an amazing experiece. A love
that lasts. Hear what i say and expand. I bid you ado. Good-Bye for
now
How many times will it be
the last time i ever fall
for the fact that i die every time
i wish the bidding
of your overpowering call
For me to come back
to the true kingdom of love
yet I turn away
From your castle above
My mind is blank
and i hate to say
that i am again asking
for one more day
Everytime it happens
Everytime I ignore
The white blood I shed
is the birthmark i bore
Although its easier each day
days turn to weeks
yet my future ahead
still seems so meek
I need you now,
for I don't know why
why i still glance
that lust in the eye
Help me escape
Help me wistand
the crushing power
of satans hand
My heart is in your hand
mold me to you desire
that i may not burn
in hell's deep fire
As i wish for your happiness
and that you don't end like I
I give you hope for this is not
My one last goodbye
I am growing,
as are you
you may not know it
but its true
It will end
the temptation will end
there is still a way out
in that light around the bend
I Go away for a summer
without any fear
For i know
that my lord is near
the last time i ever fall
for the fact that i die every time
i wish the bidding
of your overpowering call
For me to come back
to the true kingdom of love
yet I turn away
From your castle above
My mind is blank
and i hate to say
that i am again asking
for one more day
Everytime it happens
Everytime I ignore
The white blood I shed
is the birthmark i bore
Although its easier each day
days turn to weeks
yet my future ahead
still seems so meek
I need you now,
for I don't know why
why i still glance
that lust in the eye
Help me escape
Help me wistand
the crushing power
of satans hand
My heart is in your hand
mold me to you desire
that i may not burn
in hell's deep fire
As i wish for your happiness
and that you don't end like I
I give you hope for this is not
My one last goodbye
I am growing,
as are you
you may not know it
but its true
It will end
the temptation will end
there is still a way out
in that light around the bend
I Go away for a summer
without any fear
For i know
that my lord is near
Why not, as a matter of fact. I would say that the majority of
tenagers despise High school. I Would say it is the major turning point in all
human lives. Where your old enough to decide for yourself but young enough to
dream big. However, the teenage mind hardly escapes the boundries that high
school sets. Most are overstressed, while some are not stressed enough. Some
don't even go to school for school itself. A lot go for friends, some go for
glory, some go just to get away from home, some go because they have nothing
better to do if they didn't walk the five blocks to those double doors every
week. High school, has been the basis for many a movie since the teenage mind
is so craving of the drama insitlled in it by media that it needs a way to make
life seem more entertaining than it really is or has to be. Teens are also one
of the most easily manipulative. It's not a coincidence that many addictions
spawn from adolesenct distress. The minute a teen goes into a somewhat good
looking relationship they will immediatly consider it to be love. A teen will
consider any butterfly in the stomach love in stead of just knowing it to be an
excuse for the chemical high that they so wish to feel. Poets are fascinated by
love as much as they are about death. The simple reason for it is because both
of these are unknown,and the mind craves what it doesn't know. If we knew
everything we would be bored out of our all knowing minds. Think, a person
knows what a soft summer breeze feels like an can personify and symbolize it in
whatever way they find nescessary. To know what love is is simply an assumption
since there is no clear cut definition for it. Same goes with Death. Do we
Really know what happens after death? Has anyone told us what happens? Do we
really go to a better place? Do we descend into Hades? Do we grow into a tree
and become recycled as a new part of the earth? Are we reborn into another
body, cleaned of any past memories with the sole purpose of keeping
consciounsness? OR do we sit in our graves in an infinite slumber, either
thinking or dreaming. THat may be what heaven actually is. A person who lives a
good life walks with no burdens and spends their afterlife concious, but
immobile. They are devoid of any regrets, fears, shame or dismay and live
through the rest of their death bed in peaceful slumber, dreaming of a
different life, or continuing their unfinished life. While the other person
with many regrets and wrong doings is troubled while he sleeps. Will he ever
wake? Would he really want to? and what if we actually are just a dream? What
if each text that you read is me communicating to you? Or what if i don't even
exist? what if what you are reading is simply your persception of life, you are
the only real thing known in your mind and everything else is simply an
explaination to keep you within sanity? Could we really all be so complex to
have the ability to think, read , breathe, pleasure, figure, and reason? What
if we are all play toys in a simple experiment of a greater being? could their
be others like us in a different dimension? Or, could you just be a dream made
by someone else, living by the way they wish to see you, in their own vision?
To question reality is to think, wonder and believe. Then comes the oh so
wonderful "the Matrix" and plato's allegory of the cave question.
What is real? is what we label to be real only the minimum and maximum to what
we can understand? If we could understand more would more come into our light
that we haven't realized? What if there is another element besides Earth, wind,
fire and air? Or a different Matter than solid, liquid , gas, and plasma? we
can't wonder or imagine since we are unknown to it. WE could imagine a Willy
Wonka And the chocolate factory realm, but to imagine any thing beyond that is
literally and metaphorically unthinkable. So i tell you now, to question
reality. It may be the best thing you ever did, or thought you did. Shine today
Like no other.
For the never ending act
where one goes to school, works, and comes home from school, the cycle is
extenuating. The fact that we as humans must endure countless days of
governmentally fueled education is astounding. For the 13 years one goes to
madatory school, and the years to follw of higher educated school, one must
think what it is all for. Why, preperation for preperation my good friend. For
you see, while we are in the Infantile stage, our we, along with our paretns,
prepare for Youth education, or kindergarten. From there, preperation for grade
school, middle school, and so on, until after college you are in the course of
selecting and participating in your designated job. From there, you prepare for
your retirement, wen you have enough money to fund the rest of your life in
luxury without worry. From there, in your old age, while there is limit to what
you can do now in compared to your youth, you spend the rest of your days
getting in enough excitement and joy before innevitable death. a Depressing
statement but a correct one. Now For the title let us rewind to say, 9th grade.
An average teenager attands a public high school and walks into his history
class. "the teacher hates me. Thats why hes Failing me" the student
thinks. How often this statement is thought or expressed is countless. The reason
one believes this is due to the fact that rather than believe one is flawed or
imperfect, one would rather pass the blame. The Ignorance of every Human being
shines bright in High school. They then proceed in an innocent act to send a
plea to their parents of their "horrible" teacher. How does the
parent react. 60% Of the time, they take the childs side, 20% the teacher's,
and 20% take no part in it whatso ever an leave the problem to the child. In
the 60%, the parent goes in, furious, but oblivious, to their failing child's
grade. To them, the child's story of completing all homework assignments and
activley participating in class is true, while the idea that the son is lazy,
does no work, and spends the duration of class talking about how intolerable
and unfair their teacher is would be unimaginable. This is when the Vendetta is
formed between parent and school. Now, in this chain of events, the bright
shine, and the dull darken, as fate would have it. So the fued once created now
diminished has been replaced to shame while a family holds a son with no
potential. I am sorry that i write this, for this is me ranting away at
experiences in my life that i wish to bring to the attention of most of my
peers and or readers. I thank you for your time, sorry it took so long to get
another post in, and i will tell you that i will speak more about school
shortly. Thank you, and good Day.
Sitting on the windowsill staring out at the world surrounding
the hospital i'm trapped in, i wondered if somewhere on the other side of the
building, would be another boy, in the same position looking back at me. We'd
both be wondering why we were here, what's going on, what will happen after
this. Whether a person in the hospital are sedating or being sedated, i feel no
different emotions from either. I've never really liked hospitals, and not for
the reasons why most others do, like fear of needles or becoming sick
themselves. One, have you ever noticed that all hospitals smell like hospitals?
the irony of it is as sickening as the smell. The combined smell of old people
and disinfectant is as unappealing as school cafateria food. 2, and a more
serious note(my apoligies for the harm i have bestowed or the stupidity i have
shown by the last reason), the aura of a hospital always drives a spine throgh
my heart.The grief, depression, sorrow, anxiety and stress that lingers in a
hospital is enough to drive any sensory into madness. Have you ever seen the
faces of people when a patient goes into critical condition?
Some others reasons I shall never set foot in a hospital is the crowdedness. Too many people, too many emotions, my mind splits as soon as i walk in. The last thing i will say is the location of this specific hospital building: The ghetto. Although i do feel sorry for the people who do not wish to live here or the people who are forced to live here, i will not show any sympathy for the half minded choices that some of its members make. Women who sell themselves, men who hate, curse words as a launguage to some, i simply despise places and people such as this. The gangs of the world are one of the things that poisins the essesnce of it. Once again i am sorry for the hurt or anger i have caused some of those who read this. this is not a teaching. this is more me attempting to ward off the evil spirits of anger, and while i may be going too deep too fast with this entry, i feel i just needed to write this to exhaust my anger, and if anyone reads this, to know me better. I thank those who enjoy my writing, and would appreciate if anyone could message me and tell me why i have 130 page views and 2 recent visitors. explain, please. Thank you.
-Tommy
Some others reasons I shall never set foot in a hospital is the crowdedness. Too many people, too many emotions, my mind splits as soon as i walk in. The last thing i will say is the location of this specific hospital building: The ghetto. Although i do feel sorry for the people who do not wish to live here or the people who are forced to live here, i will not show any sympathy for the half minded choices that some of its members make. Women who sell themselves, men who hate, curse words as a launguage to some, i simply despise places and people such as this. The gangs of the world are one of the things that poisins the essesnce of it. Once again i am sorry for the hurt or anger i have caused some of those who read this. this is not a teaching. this is more me attempting to ward off the evil spirits of anger, and while i may be going too deep too fast with this entry, i feel i just needed to write this to exhaust my anger, and if anyone reads this, to know me better. I thank those who enjoy my writing, and would appreciate if anyone could message me and tell me why i have 130 page views and 2 recent visitors. explain, please. Thank you.
-Tommy
THink to last year. Look at all you message board posts, AIM
archives, journal entries, diary dates, calendars, planners, everything that
would have track of what you did between where you were and where you are. What
changed? Did anything? Are you wiser? Better? stronger? Have you completed the
things you started? Have you Helped yourself or others? What have you done in
the past year? I checked into an AIM log of my Birthday of last year. In it i
was talking to an old crush asking her if she was coming to a party. In it, i
stated that i was perverted, didn't know what i was going to do with my life,
and was bored out of my mind. Today, I still struggles with the matters of lust
and perversion, i still go days with almost nothing to do, yet i know what i
wish to do with my life.Certain things i have learned and realized did not take
me a year,although I will admit I believe i have become wiser. I know i could've
spent the year better. Now that i have finished what i have said and done, ask
yourself these same questions. use them to use yourself wisley. you are not a
person to live by the laws that others bestow upon you. You do not have to to
follow what everyone else does. now, this doesn't mean that you should hi-jack
a car, drive to the next state and rob a bank. no. This means, that you are
your own. You control your body and your life. do with it what you will. but
make sure it is all truly what you wish to do. if you are apprehensive about
something, don't proceed with the task. What you should do is everything that
will benefit. whether it be you or those around you. Really think about the
neccesaties. do you really need this years new make-up brand? Will having your
wardrobe "up to date" really help you with your future? Will buying
and eating loads of candy or buying, playing, and beating every video game on
the market really help you with your life? None of this will. If you live a
life where many things use time, but make no progress, think if it is time to
drop those tasks and turn to what really matters in life. Find a person who you
really like, who is special and shares all the same interests and pursuits as
you do, not just dating a new person every week. Think abot progression and
what will actually help you in life at the end of the road. will you turn into
the drive way of a nice home and a wonderful life, or a dead end of broken
dreams?
For the confusion of the world I give my bidding. life is no
where near what man expected in my opinion. in reality, no world can sustain
the power of life. and it is hard to believe that one mind can hold all the
understanding of it either. Life can be as simple as a day to day schedule,
living each and everyone like the day before. life can also be lived in a
constant struggle. one where even the controller of the mind is unsure of what
life wants to do with it, or what he will do with his own life. Most of the
world lives in ceaseless confusion. From the easiest things to the stronger
emotions. The mind is a complicated object. its very existence is question in
some minds. whether this be the idea of destiny and fate, or the simple idea of
not having control over ones self. Some are Burdened with the subject of
addiction. the word addiction means an act of habit that is so apealing to
desireable to a person that it begins to take control of them. it can control
their life in some situations. It can use thier time, use thier body, or use
their mind. an addiction will confuse you to no extent. It will fight with your
reason at all the times of your existance. It is the time that you find
yourself that you will face your addiction.once you take control of your mind
and warp it to your control, you will finally be able to master your life. You
will not be tempted to do anything you will regret or misthink. This is not a
simple task. It is an odd undoing as well. when i was youg, i don't know how,
but i forged my mind to change a fear of heights to a pleasure for them. I love
to be up in the air, on a high cliff, on a rock wall. I do not like being on
the ground all the time. but i stay to the ground for my appreciation for the
earth. this can be done about anything and everything. as long as you decide to
take the journey to do so. it will not be easy or fun, but it is possible. Join
the adventure to become the master of your own body and mind. Follow your
ideas.
A 14 year old wakes up on
a saturday. Its twelve o' clock when she wakes up. she calls her friends, puts
on her make up, gets dressed and walks out the door. She gets home around 7.
she enjoyed her day. She is living the teenage dream. Pretty, popular, boys at
her feet. to her, life is good. thousands of other girls follow in her foot
steps , do what it takes to reach her position, or dream about what it would be
like to be like her. One among thousands, living by the daily life, by what you
know how to do. Life is like everything else. Life is what you make it. The
glory, admiration, and happiness sadly, is all empty. None of it means
anything. When time passes, the time spent wondering who's hotter, Devon
werkeiser or Joe jonas, hour spent picking out what to wear to the prom. All of
it plays no role to the rest of the world. people do what people do. not many
set themselves apart from the rest of the world. mainly because people are not
used to it. if people do not like doing things that are hard or difficult, they
will take the easy way. many do what they do based on the thoughts of others.
Not many really think alone or apart. If you were to spend one day doing what
you've never done, what would you be doing? If you were to take someone who has
a life almost completly opposite of your own, and live their life, would it be
happier and more meaningful than what you already have, or worse? Really think
about it. between the guy whos hair is cut just right, perfect teeth, and
friends who are just like him, to the punk kid who no one notices with friends
who'd back him up on anything. who has it better? Who knows what he wants out
of life. the same goes for the captain of the cheerleading squad to the girl
starting her own underground band and lead singing. do their strengths outmatch
yours? do they live a different life each day? is life meant to be played by
the book? what is behind the mask of every day life? is there a person, a
loner, a deciever, a misfit, or a copy? Think about life. Is there more to life
than clothes, make up, boys, girls, looks, and popularity? I talked to a person
once,about my thoughts. she was blind to what i saw, and found no meaning to
what i said. You are you're own. Think, right now as you read these words. who
are you, and what do you want. what do you wish to accomplish. what difference
to you wish to make. what pride do you want to bring to you or the people all
around you. do you want to be a person who is remembered for the semester, or a
person who is remembered. Think about that.
Nothing actually. theoretically, it destroys. no element is
actually as destructive as the Human element. think of it this way. The sun
feeds the plants with glucose, a form of sugar that helps the plant grow and
strive. the plant then passes on that energy to whatever organism that consumes
it. that organism uses that energy to help the plant grow even more, whether it
be a squirrel planting acorns, or a bird spreading seeds. a lot of people dont
notice how animals actually interact with the enviroment. people are too busy
skipping about" oh my, i have to go to school, finish my biology finals,
then i have to do my homework before going to work then i have to start my
thesus(i apologize if thats the wrong way to spell "thesus",or
"apologize") and i understand where your coming from, but stop once
in a while look around. see where you are, where youve been. notice the events
that have changed you life, and those that havent, think about the world in
itself and not just the world inside of you that you play throgh daily.
Thinking is the main basis. not many people get the time or focus to think. the
best way i find is to go to an open area of nature, whether it be a clearing of
forest near your house, or your backyrd, and make sure you won't be bothered.
now meditate. you dont need to chant or hum. thats only if you intend on doing
yoga, or something. just focus on thought and breathing.now, think for a while,
whether it be 3 minutes or thirty, and never rush that is key. let the stress
and worries of the day flow out of your body. let the earth heal your presencse
with its warmth. now think.now one thing to think about is nature. notice the
cycle everything flows through. the bird in the tree, the inscects in the
gropund, and the clouds in the sky. they all help one another in a never ending
act of leaning on one another. then man comes and pushes them over. the animals
worry about planting the seeds for the tree. the human worries about how long
it will take to cut it down. the bird cleans out the river, while the factories
pollute it. the human element tramples on the land and destroys its home. it
does not care what damage it does for it does not realize what it does on a
daily basis. it is to busy worrying about the next and never about the now.
think what will happen if we continue on our destructive path. once our cars
let us down, our TV's dont turn on, and the TV dinner comes out cold. all of
our laziness, all of our greeds and selfishness , will ultimatley consume us.
Man claims that they are the smartest being on earth, when really most of us
are the most idiotic. a large percentage of our people are overweight or out of
shape, and they go on "oh its the fast food resteraunt or the
video games, no, were not doing anything wrong, its them", then the person
saying this hops into his new sports sedan.Realize what the car does.it makes
it so that you can go from place to place with no effort and very quickly, and
that seems good, but think about it. when your walking, your thinking, when
your running, your refreshing your body. while traveling by man owns standards,
he builds muscle and peace of mind, driving in a car builds laziness and
impatience. Think of other things man has made. Microwaves, we never have to
cook our food ever again, its unhealthy, but i turn 30 minutes of cooking into
3 minutes of waiting.when the microwave doesnt work , then what? you dont know
how to cook on the stove. so you order pizza. why not, i have money to waste, i
can just throw it away. really, all the stuff we've made for "convinence
to make life easier" is taking away what God gave us. Work. Work helps.
being lazy doesnt. Even the Bible says that lazyiness is a sin, yet we continue
to do it. why, because we dont know better. we are so apt to doing all of this
already and always depending on it we dont know how to rely on anything else,
especially our selves. im sorry im ranting and presenting this in a negative
way. i got really into it and im just a little angry. im a writer , but my life
is not just sitting at a keyboard typing messages and journal entries. i hope i
can help people, but i dont know if i am or am not. i mean to do well but i fear
i may hurt others in the process. if my teachings, if i may call them that, be
what you think of it as you will, may help or hurt, but if they hurt, i do not
ask you to read, i am sorry for any pain i have caused you. i simply do this to
help others realize some of the stuff that is happening in this world of ours
and hope to help it and the world by spreading the message of my thoughts and
my beliefs. im am sorry if i have hurt you. if i have not, and you have enjoyed
my writings, thank you for reading, and i am also sincerely sorry this took so
long, and for all the typos or mispellings. Thank you. -Tommy
If you do not feel comfortable talking about pornagraphy, you
may choose whether or not you want to read this article. If you enjoy
pornography and believe it is harmless fun, this article will hopefully
enlighten you on the truth. If you are a recovering pornagraphic viewer, want
to quit, but don't know how, i suggest reading this article and going to
xxxchurch.com, trust me. now to the article. The national lie, is the threat of
pornagraphy. most think that viewing pornagraphic images and performing the
actions that go through with that are simple,natural fun with no harm or sin
involved. Contradictions come up where the bible says nothing
"specifically" about masturbation, pornography, or pervertedness. Yet
if one of these debaters was to go further, it does. One, the bible does straight
out say that thou will not have sex before marriage. This combines with the
imformation where the bible states, "no man shall look at a woman with
lust in their eye". This is where all men and women are warned that
pornagraphic images and told that it is sin. The final reason that masturbation
is a deadly sin is for the fact that masturbation is a self gradifactation
process. the act is demeaning to women, confusing selfish task, and disgusting
habit. it is a cheap thrill and can lead to selfish and cruel acts. people
spend hundreds of dollars on magazines websites, memberships, and many other
pornagraphic images for their own personal desire. the pornagraphic empire is a
multi-billion dollar program, ranging from soft images, graphic video games, to
hard core web videos and movies. it is sickening how far this disease has
spread. E- mails go out daily with perverted deads in mind. websites are
published across the globe to feed the hunger of the young man's monster. Is
something that makes you look at men and women in a new way, make you spend
hours away at night, keeping somethihng in private and secret, really "no
big deal"? it is one of the largest infestations of our country.
pervertedness has gone from the minds of almost every household in america and
the world. XXXchurch.com states that the average age children become addicted
to porn at age 11, but kids can become exposed to porn at ANY given age. it is
honestly dispicable. for a full result of the contradicting debate, watch Craig
Gross's debates with "the porn king" Ron Jeremy on youtube.com, or
read many of the articles and watch the videos on xxxchurch.com. thank you for
reading. i apologize if i have harmed any persona in the writing of this
article or reading of it. i sincerely apologize. i hope to continue this topic
in the future, but may not. i am sorry if i have readers who have waited for a
new article. thank you for reading. Good night.
ok, so pi is really equal to 3.1415926535...., but thats not the
point. Like pi, love is infinite, unpredictable, and incredidible. Love is the
one bond that keeps the world in some form of harmonial balance. Songs tell of
it. Movies are based off of it. People live for it. People die for it. It can
be a light in a dark room or the thing you fear the most. not all love is as
good as it seems since some people can relate it to two things: heartbreak and
happiness. So many people get a feeling for another, but are afriad to go after
it in fear of being turned down, or let down. Many people in this world think
that love is a tool and should be used as one. they manipulate the
excruitiating feeling into something they can use against the person and for
themselves in order to gain better relationships or a cruel laugh. Real love is
often mistaken. Some use it as an expression because it is one of the easiest
thing to say in coversation. a Boyfriend and girlfriend who have been dating
for 3 weeks dancing under a street light can easily say " I love you"
but it really takes a lot more for the powerful emotion to truly be expressed.
Some people also get confused with the lower class "loving" the girl
or boy in the upper class. The common crush, which i will also touch on. You
also have the mixed Love of perfection., a long word meaning you take simple
similarities and match them to be your "soul mate". Ever hear this,
" she's perfect for me dude, she and I both play drums, we both like
guitar hero, me both love ice cream, and we both have brothers, we have , like,
so much in common." anything along those lines? the crush is
also an illusion of love. the deep infatuation at a sudden moment, and the leap
of the heart is often a fool in disguise that will soon run away. then theres
the heartbreak. when the crush turned you down or the boyfriend dumps or cheats
on you. on the many levels of break up and heart break are based on these
levelw. the best kind is a mutual break up. this is when both people feel that
the relationship is not working out and that it should end . Going farther up
on the chain you find the break up of harsh. the one where the breaker and the
broken are almost equally hurt but not on a drastic level. this is the average
break up. then comes the desperado, where the one breaks up the the other pleads
for them not to go through. this is very painful in the end for the broken, but
little often comes to the broker. then theres the reall harsh break up. this is
sometimes in cheating. when extreme hurt comes to the broken, and the breaker
either is in despair, small loss, or shakes it off. the final worst one is the
insult. a small name for the most evil break up. this is when the breaker
straight out turns against the broken and kills them on the inside. " i
hate you, i never loved you, get out of my life" that kind of thing. This
is the worst and sometimes leads to suicide. this shows just how powerful love
is. From the best day of one's life to death. this shows the true fear that
some face. however, love is great. in more ways them one but id like to leave
you on a positive note. love starts small, but it can blossom into the most
beautiful thing one can ever inmagine. it has changed the world on a level no
one could even believe. i belive, that if one loves another, go foward with it,
but be wary if it's risky. some loves swim into dangerous waters. A boyfriend
you've been friends with for years is a lot safer than the new tough guy in
school. Be careful with love. but it is a wonderfully happy thing. Trek through
it for it is something you will face in the course of life. go foward in life,
and all of your days. Shine today like no other.
-Tommy
-Tommy
Welcome to the world.
Here it is. You may not like it, but its there, and your going to have to live
in it. Most people would veiw the world as a depressing place to live.
Violence, terrorism, war, dept, disease, racism, the list goes on as long as
negativity continues in this world. As long as there is more out there, the
human eye will want more and seek it no matter what means they go by. This is
the problem america has faced from years to decades, and now centuries. Think
about it. We come to america, a land that was not our home as a seek of refuge.
Since we were unfamiliar to the land and lifestyle, the group of stragglers
grow weak. The indians, kind hearted to the brothers and sisters of this great
earth, sought out to help us. we get back on our feet, lean one another and
grow as a nation. If only they knew. though the Americans had escaped the so
called "evil" of the old world, england, they still brought it with
them. presidents cm in, and when andrew Jackson came, oh, i prayed for the indians
saftey. oblivios to their kind hearted deeds they slaughtered them like wild
animals, another crime this country continues to prusue. We saw land and power
and we wanted it we craved them when we shouldn't have been there in the first
place. Evil won that day. Why i don't know. The world is terrible in the eyes
of those who think it but only see that with their eyes and are blind to the
damage they do to it themselves almost daily.In order stop stop this wicked
haze we must look past it. Think what those dreams really could be if we sought
after what we truly wanted and not just what our greed asks of us. If we want a
peacful oasis with lush green pastures and open feilds we should seek that, and
not a new accord that gets 2 miles more to the gallon then last years
model". We need to Improve and anytime is when we should start. I'm not
writing this for me, I'm writing it as an opinion of my mind,as weirded out as
it is, all i say is true, and will most likely remain that way if people do not
look above their shoulders and see the light that can be and not the grime
under their feet. Shine today like no other.
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